New Year's Resolution(s)

I' going to be a little cliche and put down my New Year's resolutions for the entire internet to see. And maybe I'll go through with them. For once. Here we go!
1. Straight A's
2.Eat healthier
3. Drink more water
4. Exercise (hahaha, yeah right)
5.Participate in clubs/be more social
Yay for self improvement! Let's start this new year on the right foot and keep the positive energy rolling.

Party Impulses

I may live in America, but I want to have a Burns Supper. Haggis and all. I really love the works of Robert Burns so I see it fit to throw a classic Burns Supper. January 25 I will be throwing the classiest of parties. Where does one find haggis in America? Hmmmm...It's going to be so awesome that even Robert Burns would be proud.

I Feel Fine

The world did not end. Surprise, surprise. But it was a lovely solstice! Merry Yule and Happy Solstice to all!

That One Cliche

What is the one thing that we get told time and time again? Be yourself. And we ask ourselves, what exactly is my self? We create ourselves. Our likes, our dislikes, our wants and needs are all so very different and define us to make us different and unique. Our experiences also shape us and contribute to our identity. Some say that you should never change for someone else. I don't necessarily agree. That change could be for the better. But as for me I change for no one but myself.

Feeling Trapped

I never like to stay in the same place for too long. I guess it's because I never really feel like I belong. But it's also because there are so many adventures to be had! And though I love the friends I've made here at the university there are times when I feel that I need to get away from here. I have no clue where I would go, but I have some ideas. Saving up enough money to leave the country for a bit and explore the world. Get my passport and a visa and just go with only a vague plan. And most of the time imagining all the adventures that I could have is sufficient, but deep down I long to move forward.

A Light in the Midst of Darkness

Yes, there are lots and lots of awful things that happen everyday, but I feel that we shouldn't focus so much on the bad. Although we all need our time to grieve and we should never ignore the bad things that happen, we should not dwell on them. I was watching the Lord of the Rings while I was thinking about this and it came to the part at the end of The Two Towers where Sam gives his monologue and I thought, if everyone was more like Sam the world would be a better place.It's one of the few parts of a movie that's made me cry. For reference Sam says:
      "I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something."
By this point I am pretty teary eyed, but that's beside the point. Sam points out that there is bad in the world, that the journey can and will be scary and sometimes it seems like there is no good in the world. But people still keep moving forward. Why do we? Frodo asks Sam this and Sam answers:
     "That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for"
We need to hold on to the fact that there is good in the world and that even in the darkest of times when it seems like there is no light we need to fight for that light because it's still there it's just a little harder to see. 

The Future

So the end of the semester is nigh, as in finals are next week. So let's panic and freak out! Except that's not what I'm worried about. I am terrified of the future. When I graduate what am I going to do? I have no clue. Some days it seems like I have no options for jobs after graduation and then other days it seems like the whole world is open to me and I can do anything. In reality it's probably some middle ground between the two, but it's still terrifying. The worst part. I still have three semesters left, plenty of time (I hope). Well, come what may and love it!